Monday, January 31, 2005

I Can Smell Love Already. . .

Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.'

Mature love says: 'I need you because I love you.'

Long time no blog. Sorry! Well, I had my last exam today, thank God. Done with First Semester! Woopdeedoo! =) In four days, my Second Semester will be starting. Wo-ow. Hello English, Marketing, and MATH. [sigh] Good luck to me in MATH. Geez, I barely survived last year's math. Pano pa kaya yung next sem? Haybuhay. Why do we even have to learn math??? I mean, it's not like we use it in our everyday lives. Ohwell.

It's already February 1 tomorrow, or rather 30 mins from now. The Love Season is about to start. Aww, too bad I can't be with my love on that special day.=( 17 months-8days-11 hours-10 minutes...and counting! I miss him badly. =( [babe, u better come on march!] Kakainggit naman yun mga couples that I see everyday walking together, holding hands, hugging, kissing. =(

Bu the way, about the quote up there, I got that from a site, and well, I heard it from a movie. It's a little bit mind boggling when you first read it...but then, mapapaisip ka..Which one am I from those two? Do I/Does he need him/me because I/he love/s him/me? Or is it the other way around? Is this REAL love? How would I know? Is there suppose to be a sign? Is the feeling really mutual? I hope so. This is not the so-called "puppy-love". At least I don't think so. Some people might think that this relationship might not work out. But I have a vague feeling that it will...somehow. I'm happy that I took the risk with him to be in this relationship. I never really believed in long-distance love. I used to think 'That's crazy! How the hell will that work?! I wouldn't wanna be in their situation."
Well, yes. It is crazy. It does work (for us..somehow..) and no, I still wouldn't choose to be in this situation. BUT, these are the things you do for love. It's crazy how things work out sometimes, and you don't even know. You may be with someone you least expect to be with. Weird. Love is weird. Love is crazy. Love rocks. Love sucks. Love is an oxymoron. One moment you're in a state of pure blissfulness, then the next thing you know, you're crying your eyes out. Oh, Love. Who can live without it? I know I can't.

Friday, January 21, 2005

Keeping My Sense of Humor

Keep your sense of humor. There's enough stress in the rest of your life to let bad shots ruin a game you're supposed to enjoy. -Amy Strum Alcott

So, I haven't been blogging since the year started...BIG DEAL. Haha. Well, let me update you guys with what's been happening with me lately. . .

Resolution Check-up
Ok...as far as I know, I haven't been keeping up with my resolutions (just some). I mean, I never thought it was going to be this hard. Even the simplest goal seems unreachable. I know I worry too much sometimes. I can't not worry, ok? that's just how I am...(I'm trying!) The sleeping habits though was totally out of reach for me these past weeks. I mean, with all the work load I got, geez, I think I'm starting to be insomniac. Really, 5-6 hours of sleep...not enough! By third period, I'm half-dead. Honestly, no sleep, no food (coz my lunch is after 3rd period). . .*sigh* Lastly, about getting a job. Well turns out I am allowed to apply (coz I told my dad I'll be applying in the library). Except...I sort of..well...change of plans. Yes, I originally wanted to get a job so I won't be bored as hell. But then I figured that if I work and at the same time attend school, then I might not be able to concentrate on my studies. That's my first priority right now...and it will stay my first priority until I figure out what the flip I want to do with my life. Goodness.

Speaking of School. . .
Yea, since classes resumed, I've been bombed with tons of school junk. Err. My second day of school was perfect (ya right) , with 3 tests? What else could've been better? From that day on, I have been given about hmm...lets see...3 projects, 2 assignments, and of course homework. I feel so relieved right now that I am finally done with all those projects and ISUs (independent study unit). Yeah, school's been a real pain. But my efforts will surely be worth it. My group alerady got 100% on our presentation for Accounting! Now that's a lovely mark! That's what I'm talkin about! Hopefully, I get a decent mark on the ISU that I just submitted earlier today in History class. I spent days doing that. I sacrificed my zZzZzZz for that! I better get a good mark..or else....

3 years down, 1 to go. . .
Ok, last friday, we recieved our course calendar with our option sheet. OhMyGod. Worried me. Of all the things that I have to decide...this freaks me out the most! I mean, I have no flippin idea what I want to do with my life. . .I have lots of options, yet it's so hard to choose. It's like I don't know myself. Sometimes you think that you know yourself really well, but really, you have no flippin idea. Next week is our exam week. That means there are only 2 (school) days [coz our exams start on wednesday through to monday (ya i know its stupid)] remaining until the end of the semester. It went by so fast. I switched my first period class for next semester, which is psychology,sociology,and anthropology, to marketing. I think it will lessen my work load. Plus, I know it will be easier for me, since I'm more into those kinda stuff. So next sem, my courses are (in order) Marketing, English, Leadership/Theology, and Math (oh no..) So yea, it's good that my semester is balanced, with 2 hard courses (math & english) and 2 not so hard courses (3 actually). So yeah...the course selection sheet is due on monday, so I better get thinking about what courses I'm going to take next year. The only compulsory subjects are english and religion. For religion I'll be taking Philosophy, coz I'm tired of the regular religion class...then I get to choose 6 electives. I'm thinking of taking these courses: Int'l Business, Organizational Studies, Accounting (yes, again), Advanced Functions and Calculus (yuck! I don't really want to, but I think I have to if I want to go to university), and probably Chemistry but the college course, coz I didn't take the university course this year, so I cant go to a university stream Chemistry next year because it's a prerequisite. So there. Im just taking that just in case I want to take up dental hygiene. Well, so yeah. . . right now, I'm just so confused. I dunno what to pick! =(

Well, I gotta log off. My eyes are starting to bulge out. Haha! I hope my dad gets that assistance to fix my computer coz the cd drive's still not working. grr. Well, 'til the next one. . .I probably won't be blogging until maybe after I finish writing my exams. Abangan ang susunod na kabanata. . . haha! Keep safe ya'll and don't forget to tag me! =)

Saturday, January 01, 2005

"New Year's Day is Every Man's Birthday"

"I do think New Year's resolutions can't technically be expected to begin on New Year's Day, don't you? Since, because it's an extension of New Year's Eve, smokers are already on a smoking roll and cannot be expected to stop abruptly on the stroke of midnight with so much nicotine in the system. Also dieting on New Year's Day isn't a good idea as you can't eat rationally but really need to be free to consume whatever is necessary, moment by moment, in order to ease your hangover. I think it would be much more sensible if resolutions began generally on January the second" - Helen Fielding

For days, I've been thinking of what my New Year's Resolution for this year will be...or if I'm even going to make some. Well...Here's a list of some things that I would like to do/change/improve for this year:

Resolution # . . .
1. Develop a Passion Outside School
- I know school's been hard, and adding extra activities on top of that might make it more difficult for me...but I know it's going to be for my own advantage.

2. Get a Job
-Yes, I know I'm a little bit late, but I've been bitten by the lazy bug...been extremely lazy lately. Bad bad me. So I've decided to add this to my list, so I know that I have to get it done. Making a resume's not that easy, y'know! First drop-off. . .the library! Don't get me wrong, I know the library may be a boring place, but hey (not to be greedy), they pay good moolah! ;) Plus, I know someone who works there, and he'd be glad to hook me up! =) I'd better be working my butt off, if I want to save for my own. It's best for future references, especially when it's time for me to apply to a university.

3. Worry-not
-Ah, yes. The typical Diandra--the pro worrier. This definitely has to go. I'd better stop worrying. It's time to be proactive! Yes! Go me!

4. Miss [In]dependent
-It's been extra hard for me to detach myself from my parents because since birth, I was never separated from them, and I also had to wait 7 years to have a sister to play with. I was alone for 7 years, but I never complained. I never really asked for a baby sister/brother because I was happy that way. All eyes were always on me. I had my parents, my grandma and other close relatives to take care of me. I was certainly never left by myself. Therefore, I was very much dependent on the people around me, for whatever it may be. Now, it's time for me to decide for myself, and work towards being Miss Independent.

5. Develop better sleeping habits
-Thank God for Christmas break. If it weren't for this 2-week vacation, I'd be looking extra rugged. I really need to get 8 hours of sleep every night. I have to start sleeping early, so that I can wake up earlier. (I hate waking up early in the morning)

6. Learn new things
-I have bored myself half to death. I've got to learn something new...something interesting. Sports maybe? Tennis? Rock climbing? Attend cooking classes? Anything at all! I've got to stop being a couch potato, and start being productive.

7. Read, Read, and Read
-I really never liked reading...until maybe 4 years ago. I think the first book that I read which interested me was this self-help book that was given to by my friend. After reading that, I bought Chicken Soup...and it was good ;p Then I started reading other novels such as Tuesday with Morrie by Mitch Albom, Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist (which I haven't finished), Nicholas Sparks' The Notebook, Life of Pi by Yann Martel, Angus, Thongs, and Full Frontal Snoggings by Louise Rennison (this book is hilarious!) , and Like Water for Chocolate by Laura Esquivel (I just finished reading this book a couple of days ago.) On my way to reading Rich Dad, Poor Dad, The Five People You Meet in Heaven and The Devil Wears Prada. Weeeeeee. Don't call me a bookworm!

8. I'm a Health Buff--not!
-I eat too much..but I don't really have weight problems. I guess I'm "normal". Well, my goal isn't about losing weight anyway...well, I guess part of it is. But, I really need a healthy diet. Maybe go to the gym from time to time, or join the "cardio groove" classes..but, gotta earn $ first!

9. Academics
-Come 3rd week of January, 1st semester exams will begin. Goodbye Ancient History, Biology, and Accounting. Hello 2nd semester...hello math. =( I need to get focused and do better on my time management..especially for the crucial subjects.

10. Future
-I have no f-ing clue whatsoever about what I want to do. How sad...they say it's perfectly normal to not know what I want to to do with my life...but but..it's really bugging me. I am desperate for the answer! Please Lord, give me a sign! Please! Don't let me suffer like this! I'm dazed and confused. Careers.....everything I get interested at leads me to Business. I fancy the business world. I can actually imagine myself wearing those executive-looking suits. Weow. Well, time holds all the answers. . .We''ll all have to wait.

"Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right." -Oprah Winfrey